Oops!

Jake and I made a pact that I would only call him if I was in labor. Other wise if I needed to talk to him it would be through text. Thank goodness for technology! How did the older generation do it? Hope to go into labor late at night or early in the morning when their husband was home? Any ways, I was chatting with grandma at the Creamery when I noticed a missed call from Jake. So what do I do? Totally forget about our pact and call him. He answered in a very concerned tone asking me about contractions and what not, which I thought was odd until I remembered......!!! CRAP! He had quickly packed his stuff and darted out of class, thinking I was in labor. He was too embarrassed to go back into class which I probably would be too. "Sorry guys for the big fuss....false alarm". I probably would've have made it super dramatic too.

So he left to do homework.

Sorry husband who is on edge with this whole "we don't know when she is going to come" thing!

Come on down!

Just got an e-mail from TheBump.com announcing that they are partnering up with the Price is Right! Any expecting mommy can sign up for tickets (actually now it's a wait list for tickets) here and win fabulous prizes on Tuesday November 29th.

Anyone want to join me?!

Weird

One thing I have notice while being pregnant, is that you have strange dreams. All the time! Take last night for instance. Instead of one girl baby being born, I gave birth to six. SIX! Three girls and three boys. And...they were all black. I was a little upset because how could they mistake one baby girl for six? The funniest part was the baby blessing. The boys all had white onesies on  with a green jalapeno on the front. The girls had the same but a red jalapeno on the front. The only reason I think the jalapenos came up in the dream is because Jake loves them. We have a huge jar in the fridge that he likes to snack on. Far far away from me! Did anyone else have strange dreams while being pregnant? If so I want to hear them. This is like a regular occurrence for me! Does make for a good laugh though!

A trip down memory lane

A dear patient of mine was able to stop by for a little visit a bit ago. She has been dealing with cancer and is finally in remission! She looks so good and it was so exciting to see her so full of energy. We chatted for a while, talking about our chemo stories, baldness, throwing up and etc. I told her the good news and she asked me if being pregnant brought back any memories of going through chemo. I laughed and told her definitely yes! In a way, I feel going through chemo has prepared me quite well for pregnancy. Yes it sucks throwing up and feeling nauseous but this time around, I don't mind it. It kind of reassures me the baby is still in there and things are going well! Secretly I always get nervous right before I go to my doctor appointment, thinking they are going to tell me I miscarried and that I am no longer pregnant. Am I the only one that is this paranoid? 


One thing that has also brought back memories during this is the small things that I am constantly thankful for. I love that new outlook on life and I feel being pregnant has renewed that for me. I feel I need to have that outlook on life more often. I remember going through chemo and being so grateful when I could hold something down for longer than a couple of hours. Now I'm grateful for when I have one day that I am not feeling nauseous. But I would go through all that and more for this little baby. I don't even know if it's a boy or girl yet, but I love this little baby already!

A little bit emotional

Can I just first say that I am so grateful for a wonderful husband who takes care of me and loves me during these wonderful emotional roller coasters I am constantly on! It's crazy how one second I am fine, the next I am about to burst into tears. Today was another long, long day at work. Jake had finished with work and came to keep me company while I was finishing up my notes and cleaning up. I was tired and exhausted. He came to give me a hug and I just broke down in his arms and started the "I don't know why I'm crying" crying. He just held me tighter and tried to calm me down. I always feel so silly when I break down and cry for no reason because Jake has never really seen me this emotional. I usually am pretty good at keeping my emotions at bay, but not any more! They just spill out and I have no control. He is probably thinking, "man what has taken over my wife and when do I get her back?"

But guess what?

He still loves me and he tells me that every single day.

We're moving....again

You would think I would've learned by now. However we are moving! And we are doing it right this time. After three times of moving, I'm pretty sure we are pros. We have slowly been boxing everything up before hand and labeling them. Our stuff is spread all throughout grandmas house so we have no idea where some things are. And...we are not moving in the middle of winter. Yay! We are moving to a cute little town house which I am so excited for. And so far I have been feeling pretty good. Every good day I have we take advantage of and pack as much as we can.

Hope the second trimester continues to brings me good things!

A little bit of honesty

As much as I love the fact that I am pregnant, (Jake and I thought it would be tough for us with all I had gone through with having chemotherapy when I was younger) I don't love the effect pregnancy has had on me. Sometimes I catch myself thinking....why did I want to do this again? It's been the pits. Morning sickness was and still is awful. I do have a lovely little pill my doctor gave me that has been helping somewhat but it doesn't take away the queezy feeling you get. It has stopped me from throwing up all the time but doesn't quite get rid of everything. I was hoping I would be one of the lucky ones that had no morning sickness.

Alas...no.

At first I wanted six kids. Four wasn't enough and five, well I come from a family of five and whenever we went to Disneyland, someone (usually Megan for some reason) got stuck with the creeper that is by themselves on the ride. So five was out. After Jake and I were made sunbeam teachers with nine sunbeams, the number came down to four. Now that I'm pregnant....I'm thinking two. I'm sure my mind will change but two is looking good.